01 July 2007 Sorry boyfriend, its not easy to smile when we want to spend time together but we can't. i just wish i could smile, and pretend nth is happening. Sorry boyfriend, its not easy to hold back my tears when you want to show me more love but you can't. i just wish i could laugh, and pretend nth is happening.
God, i love you... please take the wheel. I don't want to crash, and i know i won't cause you're here. I need more assurance, and i need to hold on.. i might be going nuts already, with tons of assignments and the long hours in school and the desire to excel but unsure of my potential. I have a test tomorrow, and I pray that I can rmb all that I've studied... it's His will. I don't want to break down in school tomorrow, and this I pray real hard, that I won't do so. I imagine us holding hands and walking down the beach... When can this ever happen? My family's driving me nuts and they really cant understand whatever i'm going through & they really pisses me off big time - almost every other day. The thought of having to pull through this without anyone really sucks. Nevertheless, I'm going to do my best to stay optimistic like I told myself to 2 years ago. I was aware that this would happen if i took his hand and walk beside him.. so now I tell myself, I won't give up, I'll pull through.. or at least put in all that I can to do so... KISS ME 22:15 |
I AM... |
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