10 April 2007 Any one, a friend or a lover, might tell you I love you, but things might turn sour. Conversations might always end up with arguments and the relationship ends. It doesn't mean the person didn't mean what he/she said. It just means that person's love has changed for you. It didn't become any less or any more; it just means that person's decided to love you in a different way. Just remember that that person loved you once, and that's the most important. Remember all the good times you shared, and keep those memories. After all, those memories will remain a reminder as to why you treasured that person so much back then. [adapted from www.groove-me.blogspot.com, 8th April 2007 post] I rarely read this blog. Everytime i did, it just spelled his life. But today was an exception.. This time, those words from his blog made me feel much better. Thank you Michael (: Today, at 8.40am (i usually don't wake up this early).. i finally realise the importance of memories. I always thought to myself "Does he/she still care? You mean, all the past -insert length of friendship/r'ship- didn't matter?" Oh don't worry, Matt & I are going fine, i bold the word "friend" not "lover" in that text. Anyway, memories can serve as a reminder, either in a positive or negative way. All the long, I chose to dwell on the negative aspects of these memories. I thought of the good memories as something "bad", thinking "It'll never happen again, maybe i shouldn't have spent time with -insert name-". I had a dream last night, and when i woke up, i cried. I hate him so much, i could slap him, punch him, pinch him.. only God knows my anger.. only God knows how crushed i am thanks to him. He always appear at the wrong time. He doesn't care anymore, he left this friendship to rot. Fine by me, From today onwards, i choose to keep all the good memories, & treasure the him* that gave me the good memories. Though he gave me nothing but sad memories for the past.. months, and a year or two before 2007 (around 2004-2005).. At least happy memories existed. At least, God sent me Matt ! !! He sent me a best friend, Clare (: He sent me a good friend, Xun (: He sent me a loving sister, KL (: He sent me good friends, such as Jes, & even new ones every other day (: He also blessed me with a family i should learn to tolerate more. Haha, nevertheless, i really love my family. Though the enbloc thing officially sucks.. it's just a "down" part of life. There is more than enough UPs to thank God for :) The saddest thing in this whole enbloc is that I'll be separated from my aunt's family. My cousins are like my brother and sisters.. and since they're moving to Pasir Panjang.. things won't be the same again ): But never mind, Singapore is too small, we can always meet up =D I'm looking forward to a new life in Ngee Ann.. & i know that it'll be good :) No point dwelling on the sad Hildan days. In fact, i should keep the HAPPY & LOVING moments in SHSS, which is WAY WAY WAY WAY more than the sad ones. SHSS by far, is the school i love the most. I think, it'll stay that way forever (: 我会快快乐乐地走下去！ 我不会后悔的！ Labels: thoughts KISS ME 08:33 |
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