26 March 2007 As I watch us drift, i wondered, "Is this all for the best?".
Things took such a long time to change for the better. This friendship also took such a long time to start off again. Yet, it's going to be a part of my bittersweet memories from tonight. I should forget you, and stay happy. Maybe that's what you want as well. I should not have confessed. But then again, it'll be something I'd regret too. But even if i didn't confess, you'd find out sooner or later. As much as I'd hope we stayed friends, maybe we can't be saved anymore. I'm not asking that we be close & share some bond. I'd rather be a friend than a stranger. I didn't write this post because I'm feeling emotional. It's been going on in my head for a super super long time, and I made this final decision. Although it's heart breaking, I'd just wish you'd go, and we'll forget that each other ever existed. I want the happy memories, not the ones where we ignored each other.. but I've no choice but to live with those sad memories as well. "must stay in contact ok.." you said these words, and i actually believed that i could keep another friend for life. haha i was fucking wrong. you used to be around, giving crappy yet comforting statements. you didn't know how much your words impacted me. i guess that this was all in the past. you're in my past too. hopefully in a few years down the road, I'll look back and laugh. Labels: thoughts KISS ME 22:57 |
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